my bleeding heart</3

Thursday, August 16, 2012

WOW!
I realize i cant really blog
From my past experience,
all my blog die halfway.
So somehow i wonder if anybody still viewing my blog
HAHAHA! but its okay anyway
i dont really need a reader
just wanna vent everything out only

hmmm.... So!
was not in the mood lately as i came across her fb profile lately
idk why had she unblock me
seeing her pic remind me of everything
and i can spend all day just by looking at her profile dp
waiting for her to accept my friend request
why would i even let her go
when i know she carry such a important place
in my heart.
feeling damn dumb
living in regrets for so long

was being sort of sociable lately
which others might say its flirt
but to me, im just being sociable
after being hurt for so many times
i no longer know what is the diff
between love,likes and interest
being sweet to most girls lately
but if they catch the wrong idea
i guess its not my fault?
im just being friendly
and some others still said i could be hot or cold at times
mayb due to my mood?
idk. ;D

RECEIVE A BEST MISSION YTD!
FUCKING MISSION IMPOSSIBLE
YET THE PERSON BREAK THE WORD IMPOSSIBLE UP
TO IM-POSSIBLE

and lastly before i end off.
i shall share with ppl whats with my sudden updating
hahaha! i got myself a mission like in a 8hours ago
which is to find out about someone blog's url
but somehow, google failed me
well, been controlling and keeping a distance with her
been calling her 'just another girl' hope she will back off or smth
i guess for the past 1 year, im only good at pissing her
wishing she will nvr come back anymore.
i dont wanna lose control
guess absence is the only way out.
was being moody afew days ago and i come across her tweet
she is such a smart ass
always called me BB which i still dk is buibui or baby :/
and now, idk if she is talking to me or some other guy
all along, i know im smth to her but just that its not that smth i want
i want more! this is how greedy i am. hahaha! either all or nth so i have nth now. :D
smth that i wanna tell her long ago.
smth that she always complain but i nvr once explain
i guess she think that i nvr once loved her but she is wrong
i did madly loved her just that her action turn me off
which i did the something to turn her off as well
thats why we always quarrel
missing my ex doesnt mean i love her as its in the past
but being with you mean i love you as its in the present.
guess pride did give me some problems but its a thing i can nvr live without
guess she had been moody lately as well
i rmb saying i will be thr for her when she need me
but idk if there is how many guys that told her this
so instead of comforting her and be her listening ear,
i stayed away just in case she need the others rather den me
standing from far just to check if she is alright
sry, not that im not there when you need me,
just that im faraway for you to even notice.
and i was wondering why everybody got a same question in mind
which is what do i see in her, why do i like her
But ever ask yourself why do you love someone?
if its smth you can explain, its isnt love.
feeling isnt smth you could control.
oh yeah! having bike prac tmr.
gonna end off le.
hope nobody see this post
especially her.
forever so playful
trying to be strong
and doesnt want anybody to know she is weak
de vgww. hahaha!
Goodnite ppl! :D

I finished scribbling at;11:00 AM